Who cares?

I do a lot of stuff; some important, some random, but all of it I normally get really excited about. I start new projects, sign up for everything, make my friendships a priority and I read everything I can get my eyes on to make better, cleaner meals for the family, be greener and kinder, save money, clip coupons, teach my children, be a better friend..... and for what? Sometimes I really wonder, who the flip cares? Ya know, like who really gives a crap. I'm constantly trying to be the best person I can be. Honestly half of the stuff I do here at home to better the family gets poked fun at, or shot down.... so I'm left wondering, why the heck should I even do it anymore. I mean, if I'm only using my time and energy and I'm left feeling rather empty when I don't get any positive feedback or enforcement.... is it wasted energy?

I'm going through some intense changes this year, growing older, moving on with my life. Prioritizing for time , happiness and effectiveness is everything these days. I don't want to lose the person that is ME. Doing all of the above things has made me who I am, the Sarah everyone knows. I wonder, is she gone? Some of her needed to be gone, but some of the parts that I can't find I really liked. Sorry, I know this blog is a little unlike my usually positive optimistic self, but I have to admit, this stage of life can be a bit scary at times. I'm sure glad I've got God, and if I'm honest, even then it's still scary.