AHA!

I have all I've ever wanted.... When did I decide it wasn't enough & why did I try to make life harder? I remember when I got out of the Air Force, I was so happy. 26 years old. 7 year veteran. Tons of experience, knowledge & travel. I had an amazing husband & was loving being able to do the stay at home Mom thing with Noah. I'd ALWAYS wanted to be able to physically be there for him more. I was completely satisfied. Then sometime while I was pregnant, I decided I needed something to do after I had a baby.... lol. What a hysterical thought!
I've had about 12 AHA moments in the past couple of weeks. I won't bore you with all of them, but the main one is that when we move I'm staying home with my children AS LONG AS I WANT! For the moment, we believe we are done having children. That means this is it. Noah is growing up more everyday and Scarlett will never be a precious, adventurous baby again. Life is moving at lightning speed these days & I WILL NOT miss this. So... I will savor every last minute; I will emerge myself in every Mom group, Gymboree class, school production & baby website/magazine I can get my hands on. I love this stuff! I always have. THIS is what the good Lord put me on this beautiful planet for, my family. I must have hit my head while I was pregnant... I'm sure it wasn't the hormones making me crazy ;)

My reasons <3

Now don't get me wrong, I will go back to school. I LOVE school. I'll get my degree in either Psychology or Sociology when I'm letting my children spread their wings in school & I need something to do to keep my sanity, Just kidding! No really, I'll go back when I'm done being full-time Mom & wife. When I'm ready, I'll know, I always know.
I am so unbelieveable fortunate to have such a wonderful, caring, & thoughtful husband who listens to me work all this out in my head (out loud :) ) and who gives me such great advice & support through my transition times. I love you Kevin.